Time keeps ticking.
6 months, 183 days, 4,380 hours, 262,800 minutes tomorrow since I've held my sweet, rambunctious Holston.
That means he has been residing with Jesus for a solid half a year as of tomorrow. Time is so precious here on earth, yet even greater once we reach eternity. What a life he must be having to be living with no fear, hurt, pain, suffering, or SIN!
I had a sweet conversation a couple days ago with a dear lady who recently lost her husband who she was married to for over 50 years. We discussed our grief together. She brought so much joy to the conversation by talking about the glorious eternity that we will get to be in with our loved ones soon. She misses him badly, yet she said there is no way she could beg him to return to earth because of the pain he was walking in from illness was too much. What a perspective. She is a wise, wonderful lady.
I would beg for my 3 year old to return to this world. But I know in my right mind, he is in the MOST PERFECT place, Heaven. So how could I be so selfish to ask him to stay when he left so quickly?
"Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things" Colossians 3:2
I know everyone grieves in different ways, as I'm still learning this while I'm walking through my grief. I thought by this point I would be able to work on his room some, maybe even start prepping it for a nursery. Yet, it still hurts too much. It basically looks like he could still be living in his room, and it still smells like my boy. I thought the joy of being pregnant would help us move along our grief just a little quicker, but that was taken from us fairly quickly too. So, here we are still in the midst of asking God what he wants us to continue to learn from this. How we can focus our minds on bringing him glory during our suffering.
Most of the time I can see the things that he wants us to focus on: His word, His kingdom, His glory, His redemption story... but it doesn't take away the missing piece of heart from not having the ability to kiss, cuddle, run, play with and sing Jesus Loves Me to our first born boy.
I share this with you all today to say, don't take your loved ones for granted. Love them, focus on them, enjoy each moment with them, be sure they know who Jesus is...so you too can spend eternity with your loved one.
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name. You are mine" Isaiah 43:1
Jesus said, " Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these." Matthew 19:14
